Happy pill days,

oh happy days where have you gone? im but a sad fish waiting for a bait to nible on..
oh~ gloomy afternoon... why do you come so close to me? don't you see i fear you...
it's you long shadows that reaches me out like the cold harmful hands of death..
oh~ pityful satisfaction ..why did it have to come to this? that i had to wait for another
chance of happiness and let it slip by me..
he was just standing there... and i couldn't even bring myself to say hi...
why did i have to loose it all? i had a chance ! and my clumsy side got to me...
oh unfaithful serenade.. damn you!
bacause of you, i fell hard.. face flat! i cant believe it!
the guy i've been trying to talk to finaly came up to me...
and i just chose to run.. litteraly! i ran.. to an impure area!
i ran to the washrooms and he waited.. i didn't come out.... and the bell rang, it was like
it was telling me that the cost was clear.. that he was gone!
but no.. the bell sang it's serenade and just attracted me out of my secret hidding place...
why? it's almost the end of the school year, and i've waited.. waited and it feels lie forever..
he on the other hand just stood there, he kept his eyes on me like if he would have just teared me skin of...
he walks.. i feel his aura.. angry as..who knows? he was simply furious..
he grabbed my shoulder and said something i couldn't understand..
he looked at me one more time.. i shivered and ran! ran again? yes! like the coward i am.. im not good enough...
but i believe i can do it! just have to try a little..scratch that.. ALOT harder!

i think this is what they call love? is scares me more then anything in the whole wide world...
~ps: if your wondering.. this is what just happend at school..